He
was kind of scary. He sat there on the grass with his cardboard
sign, his
dog (actually his dog was adorable) and tattoos running up and down
both
arms and even on his neck. His sign proclaimed him to be "stuck
and hungry"
and to please help. I'm a sucker for anyone needing help. My husband
both
hates and loves this quality in me.
I pulled the van over and in my rearview mirror, contemplated this
man,
tattoos and all. He was youngish, maybe forty. He wore one of those
bandannas tied over his head, biker/pirate style. Anyone could see
he was
dirty and had a scraggly beard. But if you looked closer, you could
see that
he had neatly tucked in the black T-shirt, and his things were in a
small,
tidy bundle. Nobody was stopping for him. I could see the other
drivers take
one look and immediately focus on something else - anything else. It
was so
hot out. I could see in the man's very blue eyes how dejected and
tired and
worn-out he felt.
The sweat was trickling down his face. As I sat with the
air-conditioning
blowing, the scripture suddenly popped into my head. "Inasmuch
as ye have
done it unto the least of these, my brethren, so ye have done it
unto me." I
reached down into my purse and extracted a ten dollar bill. My
twelve-year
old son, Nick knew right away what I was doing. "Can I take it
to him, Mom?"
"Be careful, honey." I warned and handed him the money. I
watched in the
mirror as he rushed over to the man, and with a shy smile, handed it
to him.
I saw the man, startled, stand and take the money, putting it into
his back
pocket. "Good," I thought to myself, "now he will at
least have a hot meal
tonight." I felt satisfied, proud of myself. I had made a
sacrifice and now
I could go on with my errands. When Nick got back into the car, he
looked at
me with sad, pleading eyes. "Mom, his dog looks so hot and the
man is really
nice." I knew I had to do more. "Go back and tell him to
stay there, that we
will be back in fifteen minutes," I told Nick. He bounded out
of the car and
ran to tell the tattooed stranger. We then ran to the nearest store
and
bought our gifts carefully. "It can't be too heavy," I
explained to the
children. "He has to be able to carry it around with him."
We finally settled on our purchases. A bag of "Ol' Roy" (I
hoped it was good
- it looked good enough for me to eat! How do they make dog food
look that
way?); a flavored chew-toy shaped like a bone; a water dish, bacon
flavored
snacks (for the dog); two bottles of water (one for the dog, one for
Mr.
Tattoos); and some people snacks for the man. We rushed back to the
spot
where we had left him, and there he was, still waiting. And still
nobody
else was stopping for him. With hands shaking, I grabbed our bags
and
climbed out of the car, all four of my children following me, each
carrying
gifts. As we walked up to him, I had a fleeting moment of fear,
hoping he
wasn't a serial killer. I looked into his eyes and saw something
that
startled me and made me ashamed of my judgment. I saw tears. He was
fighting
like a little boy to hold back his tears. How long had it been since
someone
showed this man kindness? I told him I hoped it wasn't too heavy for
him to
carry and showed him what we had brought. He stood there, like a
child at
Christmas, and I felt like my small contributions were so
inadequate. When I
took out the water dish, he snatched it out of my hands as if it
were solid
gold and told me he had had no way to give his dog water. He
gingerly set it
down, filled it with the bottled water we brought, and stood up to
look
directly into my eyes. His were so blue, so intense and my own
filled with
tears as he said "Ma'am, I don't know what to say." He
then put both hands
on his bandanna clad head and just started to cry. This man, this
"scary"
man, was so gentle, so sweet, so humble. I smiled through my tears
and said
"Don't say anything." Then I noticed the tattoo on his
neck. It said "Mama
tried."
As we all piled into the van and drove away, he was on his knees,
arms around his dog, kissing his nose and smiling. I waved
cheerfully and
then fully broke down in tears. I have so much. My worries seem so
trivial
and petty now. I have a home, a loving husband, four beautiful
children. I
have a bed. I wondered where he would sleep tonight. My
step-daughter,
Brandie turned to me and said in the sweetest little- girl voice,
"I feel so
good." Although it seemed as if we had helped him, the man with
the tattoos
gave us a gift that I will never forget. He taught that no matter
what the
outside looks like, inside each of us is a human being deserving of
kindness, of compassion, of acceptance. He opened my heart. Tonight
and
every night I will pray for the gentleman with the tattoos and his
dog. And
I will hope that God will send more people like him into my life to
remind
me what's really important.
Copyright 1999 by Susan Fahncke
E-mail - Susan@2theheart.com
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